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Torchwood: Everything Changed (Fanfiction)

Everything Changed

Word Count: ~ 600
Summary: The evening before Day 4, Jack and Ianto talk.
Characters: Ianto Jones, Jack Harkness
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Rating: PG
Spoiler: Exit Wounds, Children Of Earth
Setting: before Children Of Earth - Day 4
Warnings: Mention of canon character deaths
Author's Note: Written for the jack_ianto_las  prompt "Where do we go from here?". The comm is deeply asleep, though, so I'm dropping out and post. Fits my 5_prompts  table and prompt #3 – hey, you.
Disclaimer: I’m not making money with this fanfic. The tv-show Torchwood and the characters appearing within it belong to their producers and creators. Any similarities to living or dead persons are purely coincidental and not intended.

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Ianto wrestled open the backdoor of the old Torchwood One facility and stepped out into the cold night air. It was raining heavily, the droplets turning the dirty concrete to a shimmering surface.

Ianto huddled against the wall, protected from the rain but not from the chilly air. He pulled up his shoulders, his hands digging into the pockets of the tracksuit bottoms. He'd left Gwen and Rhys in the main room of the new Hub, discussing Gwen's pregnancy. Jack had fallen asleep on the couch a while ago, totally exhausted by his most recent deaths and thus undisturbed by their bickering. Ianto had felt the need for fresh air and had changed into Jack's discarded tracksuit bottoms and t-shirt to avoid his suit – the only suit he had now – getting wet before coming out here.

Ianto pushed away from the wall and took a few steps away from the building, letting the rain plaster his hair to his head within seconds. He closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, enjoying the quiet after the last few days, the fresh, clean smell of rain and the simple act of just existing.

He wasn't surprised, not overly so, when he heard the hinges of the door squeak. A few seconds later, two strong arms wrapped around him and pulled him back into a firm chest. Ianto let his head fall on Jack's shoulder and turned it to the side to breathe him in: pheromones and wet skin.

"Hey, you," Jack whispered in an obvious attempt to lighten the mood.

Ianto kissed his neck. "Hey," he answered.

"Are you alright?" Jack asked. "You've been quiet during dinner."

Ianto sighed. "No, I'm not alright," he answered. Jack's lips brushed his temple soothingly. Ianto explained, "I think this is it. The end.“

“Don't say that. We've not lost, yet.“

“Yet?“ Ianto echoed in disbelief. He turned around and buried his face in Jack's neck before looking at him earnestly. “We lost everything. Tosh, Owen, Myfanwy and the Hub. They want to kill us. However this ... invasion will end, we lost already, Jack. It's just a matter of how much. Everything changed and ... I have no idea where we'll go from here.“ He was glad that it was raining. That way, Jack wouldn't be able to see his tears.

Jack's hand cupped his cheek. “This isn't the end,“ he said as if he could will everything evil away with those words.

Ianto shook his head and cradled Jack's face in his palms. “Just let me ... just accept for a minute that it might be.“ He waited for Jack to protest but Jack didn't answer, so Ianto continued, “If it is ... I want you to know ... I want ...“ He closed his eyes and swallowed, tightening his grip on Jack's head to stop his hands from trembling. “I want to tell you ... I lo-“

He was cut off by Jack's lips sealing his. Jack's arms wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer. He tasted like rain and tears. Ianto wasn't sure if it were his tears he was tasting or if Jack had started to shed his own. Jack leaned his forehead against Ianto's and stared at him desperately. “Don't.“ His hand brushed through Ianto's wet hair and tangled in the strands. “It sounds like 'goodbye'. This isn't goodbye.“ He closed his eyes and pushed even closer. “Ianto Jones,“ he whispered hoarsely, “this is not goodbye.“

Ianto bit his lip and shook his head. “Nevertheless-“

“I know.“ Jack nodded, kissed Ianto's cheek and forced a smile. “I know you do.“ He wrapped Ianto up in his arms. Ianto leaned against him, breathing in the smell of the greatcoat, now stronger than usual because of the rain and slightly different because it was a new coat.

He didn't ask Jack if he loved him, too. He didn't have the courage. Instead, he just stood there in Jack's arms, letting the rain beat down on him, and wondered what the next day would bring.


END
07/11

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remuslives23
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:08 pm (UTC)
I love that you put that 'Don't' into context here. Beautifully done. I just wish they'd had a scene like this in the show.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :) Yeah, the "Don't" bothers me, so I wanted to find an explanation.
trektotorch
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:23 pm (UTC)
Very nicely written. In COE, there should have been more dialogue between Jack and Ianto beyond the "bean" scene. This fits perfectly. Well done.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:15 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :) I think so, too. It's one of the few things that really bothered me about CoE - the lack of Jack/Ianto scenes beyond them being frustrated about their relationship status.
withywindle01
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:23 pm (UTC)
I love this. I've always taken that "don't" in the show as Jack's refusal to recognize Ianto's imminent death. This story says that so well.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
aprilvalentine
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:24 pm (UTC)
This was just beautiful. I haven't been able to read any TW fic in a long time, because of CoE, but I'm glad I read this. Your summary made me realize it was something I'd appreciate and that wasn't wrong. Lovely, just lovely. I love the way you captured their emotions and the idea that Ianto somehow knows the end is coming.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. :)
aviv_b
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:54 pm (UTC)
Very nice - I also take the 'don't' to mean don't say it because that means you're dying.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :)
lawsontl
Aug. 17th, 2011 03:58 pm (UTC)
Oh, so nice and understated!

And that's how I've always taken the 'don't'. Don't give up on living. Don't give up on me. Don't say it because I don't deserve it. Don't let those be your last words. The mutual ILU would've been a cliche at that point, much as I wanted to hear one. :)

Anyhow, well done!
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)

Yeah, it would have been a bit much for Jack to say ILU in that moment, even though I would have been over the moon. I think the "Don't" was good because it was more realistic.
larsinger29
Aug. 17th, 2011 04:18 pm (UTC)
Hauntingly beautiful and a wonderful exploration of the feelings between the two of them and leading up to Day 4. I loved Ianto's introspection at the beginning there, as well as his realism. Very fitting with his character and canon.

Jack just broke my heart, because he knows the stakes but cannot admit them. Both of them were really well written here.

Terrific job, as always!
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
angstosaur
Aug. 17th, 2011 04:18 pm (UTC)
I do love bittersweet and this was perfect - especially with the rain ...
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:20 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :) I wanted to write a "kissing in the rain" story for some time, so this was the perfect opportunity.
jedi_harkness
Aug. 17th, 2011 04:33 pm (UTC)
I always thought that's what Jack meant by "Don't". I wish the show could have had a scene like this so we wouldn't have felt so cheated. I loved "House of the Dead", but I wish we didn't have to wait 2 years for it.

Well done! :D
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
evalentine99
Aug. 17th, 2011 07:05 pm (UTC)
Love it. Bitter sweet.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks :)
fide_et_spe
Aug. 17th, 2011 08:48 pm (UTC)
Aaw very sad. I really liked how you used the canon here. It felt very like a scene that could have happened, and in fact would have been lovely. Poor wee Ianto had to wait until after he was dead to hear Jack say the words..

Don't know whatever happened to that LAS comm. All the comms have died since Miracle Day. The miracle killed the fandom.

Anyhow I would have voted for this!!
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :)

All the LAS comms are inactive, so that doesn't have anything to do with Miracle Day. I'm watching and loving Miracle Day day, btw. It's not the series that killed the fandom.
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pharlap1
Aug. 17th, 2011 11:16 pm (UTC)
loved it
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :)
teaboyfan
Aug. 17th, 2011 11:57 pm (UTC)
That was my interpretation of "Don't" too. I wish we'd been given a scene like this; there was a lot of awkwardness between them and an interaction like yours would have gone a long way toward making it better. I haven't done a formal count, but my impression from looking at Torchwood Three's listings is that there are still more Jack/Ianto stories than anything else. Just sayin', RTD.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:25 pm (UTC)
Thank you. :)
chryssalys
Aug. 18th, 2011 03:02 am (UTC)
Ooh, very nice!

I'm still living in hope that the las will resurrect somehow. Like maybe she's just really having an awful time getting moved and settled and internet access in her new house. *nods* Yup. That must be it.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :)

I think she's having trouble getting settled and some members of the comm harassing her the last few months doesn't exactly help the enthusiasm. I think it'll come back, though.
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jedirita
Aug. 18th, 2011 03:30 am (UTC)
This was just lovely - in that knife-in-the-gut kind of way. But me, I'm a sucker for Doomed!love. And yes, this is exactly what I take the "don't" to mean.
jolinarjackson
Aug. 18th, 2011 02:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :)
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