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Stargate Universe: Giving Up (Fanfiction)

Giving up

Word Count: 440
Summary: Now Marian really was alone. Her only reason for living was gone. So why try to survive at all? Why even fight?
Characters: Marian Wallace
Rating: PG
Spoiler: Pathogen
Setting: somewhere before Pathogen
Author's Note: Written for the stargate_las  prompt Alone.
Feedback: Can’t breathe without it.
Disclaimer: I’m not making money with this fanfic. The tv-show Stargate Universe and the characters appearing within it belong to their producers and creators. Any similarities to living or dead persons are purely coincidental and not intended.


She opened the kitchen cupboard and took one of the many pill-boxes. She opened the lid just as her eyes found the photograph taped to the cupboard door. She froze. Eli's smile was wide and careless and her own was tired but happy. They were standing in the frontyard with their arms around each other. It had been her birthday and Marian had just survived a bad cold, barely. Even something as simple as a cold was dangerous for her nowadays. Eli had been there for her 24/7, worried but almost with a smile. She missed him so bad it hurt.

Marian Wallace wasn't used to being alone. Of course, after her husband had left her she'd had to come to terms with the fact that she was now alone but she wasn't lonely. There had been always Eli with her, her kind an gentle Eli, with way too many questions, always talking and thinking and laughing despite knowing everything about HIV and AIDS. He'd done research after his father had left. Marian had found him one very early morning, in the kitchen, reading books from the library.

”What are you doing?”, Marian had asked and Eli had just looked at her and answered, ”I have to be there for you now.”

And Marian had felt so guilty for the pressure her illness put on the boy's shoulders. True to his words, Eli had always been there, driving her to her appointments, helping her with the groceries and sitting with her when she didn't feel well. She'd been so proud when he'd told her that he would attend MIT. He'd never told her why he'd dropped out. She was still worried that it had had something to do with her. She knew that, maybe, she'd pushed too hard when, after MIT, Eli seemed to just give up and play games online all night long. She'd pushed too hard and that was why he'd taken the job the military had offered him. Her bright Eli, too smart for his own good – too smart for her – and all she could think about now was that he'd done what she'd always wanted and she'd never felt more unhappy. He had a great job and was doing great things. Things that were so great that he didn't find the time to call anymore or visit or give her a sign that he was still there.

Now Marian really was alone. Her only reason for living was gone. So why try to survive at all? Why even fight?

She closed the lid and put the medication back into the cupboard.


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